Post College Blog!

I'm here to let the few followers I have --yet cherish---that I have graduated from college and have started a new blog! The blog will include original poetry, music I'm loving, fashion and life post college. I will definitely be updating this more often and including more intimate information about my every day experiences. Check it out at the link below:

https://www.amoveablechloe.blogspot.com

It's titled after my favorite Hemingway novel, "A Moveable Feast."

08. Sade - Every Word

How I feel today. Sade always knows what to say.

Break-ups: For lovers and... friends?

So, this is not a post about Art, photography, music or poetry but my heartbreak on losing a really good friend of mine. He's not dead or anything, it was just in the best interest of everyone for us to "break-up". Although I'm the one who did the "breaking-up", he hurt me in a way that's just not acceptable, there was no going back. And to be honest being friends with him wasn't beneficial to me anymore. I don't mean that in a selfish way, just that he has a lot of dark things around him and they were starting to bleed into my life. I tried I really did, but in the end it was just too much. I still love him of course, I will probably for a long time, I haven't seen him since last summer but it still feels like it happened just yesterday. I've been through the whole crying my eyes out, depressed to hell with life, maybe I made the wrong decision thing for months. And then I was okay for a little bit and now I'm just not. We have a lot of mutual friends, so I hear about him and it's like twisting the knife in deeper. I miss him so much, now that he's gone there's this stain he left on my life. You know you don't really realize some one's affect on your life until they're not there anymore. I look around and all I see is him, not just in my memories but on my shelves and walls. I was telling my therapist; I don't know what to do it's just too much, should I put it away in a box like couples do ha ha. And she said maybe you should try that and see how it feels. So I did, I put everything in an old red suitcase I have, wrote his name on it and put it away.



Some things I put in it:



The fabric I wore in my hair and jewelry for senior ball, he was my date.



Books he gave and lent me. This was actually a really disturbing manga I wish I had never read.



The millions of picture we took in Japan Town



Bows I bought at this Japanese clothing boutique opening, he was so excited and it was pretty cool. But now I can't even remember the name of it.
And a red hello kitty back pack I used to wear when we'd go to the city, he loved it. Some portraits he drew of me, bus transfers.

It was a hard process but cleansing, I felt lighter afterward just the symbolism of putting him away helped me. I felt free.






I woke up this morning and now I feel like all that work just opened up a whole bunch of crap and now I feel awful. Like I'm the only one not coping.

Guy Aroch

So J'adore Guy Aroch maintenant, he's a brilliant photographer.

Allure and Kristen

Came across this shoot in Allure yesterday and I just loved it, everything about it: the clothes, the makeup, the hair. I really like the actress as well, ever since Speak I knew she had a talent. Her behavior, not so much but anyway I also love the setting, under the Santa Monica Pier. Amazing effect, the location really set the mood-genius.The stylist-Paul Covaco was quite inspiring for me, made me think more seriously about Fashion photography or personal styling as one of my careers.

Dinner and boys, but never dinner with boys

Well the dinner went well, we didn't have onions so I had to settle with just garlic and a million other seasonings and mustards for the crab cakes. But it was good, the spinach was delicious as always and mom was very encouraged to have dinner prepared. Instead of eating honey dijon pita chips before she went to bed. You know I'm afraid I'm going to turn into that lady from the movie, blogging about everything she makes and her whole life. I blog about life but not my nightly dinners and I can sense myself taking on her qualities and the theme of the movie. So I will stop myself here with this last entry about food. And will only blog about such when I make something exceptional.

On to more important things, like boys, boys r a mystery of the universe. I know that's not news but in my life right now I am more baffled than usual. I can never tell if a guy is flirting or just feeling himself. Sometimes it's obvious, but with this one guy, he seems to be flirting with me or just excited to see me but in a suave Sean Connery-Bond Edward Cullen kind of way. OR that he really is flirting with me. I hadn't seen him in a long time, many months and then months before that. He is gorgeous and deliciously charming but I have to wonder what he thinks about me. I swear one time he almost asked me out but then chickened out. It's so frustrating interpreting his actions for what they may or may not be! But then i thought maybe I shouldn't try at all until he asks me out, BUT what if thinks that I'm not interested and that's why he's not doing anything. Uggghhhh, my friend says I have to flirt with a guy to get his attention and let him know I'm interested. But I don't want a guy to notice me because I tell him his hair looks nice repeatedly, or giggle like a school girl, OR laugh at everything he says OR touch him inappropriately. I DON'T KNOW what to do, maybe I shouldn't do anything at all and just see what happens. That's probably the more wise and logical AND rational thing to do. But let's face it, I'm a girl...We don't know how to do that.

Julie/Julia

Well I just saw Julie and Julia which was fantastic. I love to cook, so it gave me all kinds of inspiration. And now I have decided that I will spend my first paycheck from my new job on gourmet cookware and fresh produce. Aaaahhhhh, but probably not, but it does sound nice doesn't it. Maybe i will just save up for certain sauce pans and broilers. Oh god I love to cook, but my house is quite sparse in terms of cookware, my mother can cook but prefers not too, so our kitchen isn't really made for that. But I got my love for cooking gourmet foods from my Dad. He lived in europe years ago and that's where he picked up many things. When I was little I used to see him on the weekends and he would always make me dinner. Just whip up things out of his head and they'd always be wonderful. The house always smelled of warm garlic and butter, that's when I knew dinner would be coming soon. I'd put down my doll or whatever little kid thing and come and just watch him. It was fascinating to me, and he became a hero in my eyes, a hero who makes dinner. Hmmm now I'm hungry and missing him. But I think I will cook dinner tonight and surprise my mom. I think I will make crab cakes (Hmmmm) with sauteed spinach in a garlic sauce hmmm, I can't wait. If only I had mango I could make a salsa for the cakes.

Into The Woods

I came across these pictures from a shot called "Into The Woods" when looking for inspiration and I absolutely love them. They look a little older, maybe 70's or 60's. I couldn't find the entire gallery sadly. But the first picture is incredible and I have to admit I have a little girl crush on the model in the shot. Ha ha.

Love, just love

"At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet."
-Plato

"No love, no friendship, can cross the path of our destiny with out leaving some mark on it forever."

-Francois Mocuriac

"I love a beautiful lady, I love a beautiful piece of furniture, I love beauty...I know what women want... they want to be beautiful."

-Unknown at this time

"There are some women who should barely be spoken to; they should only be caressed. "

-Edgar Degas

Betsey

So with my little angst over harley and my friend who I used to be in love with problem, I have been throwing myself into sketching and browsing new collections and trends. I came across Betsey Johnson's( one of my fav designers) fall collection for 09 and J'adore la! OMG she's brilliant and it's right up my alley. I have a lot things that have been inspiring me for the new direction I'm going in with my new line I've been sketching, so checkout my "inspiration board" if you will.

The dress she wears is awesome

Beautiful

I love fashion photography, I've been thinking about doing that as well as design in the future. It 's like a music video to a song, if you love a specific artist you're going to want to see their new video right?

Italian Vogue

I love fashion and fashion photography, and I realized I haven't blogged about it at all and it's a great passion of mine. So I came across some pictures from the all black issue of Italian Vogue from last July and these are some of my fav's.